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O Lord, I do not know what to ask of You.
You alone know what my true needs are.
You love me more
than I myself know how to love.
Help me to see my real needs
which are concealed from me.
I do not dare to ask for either
a cross or for consolation.
I can only wait on You.
My heart is open to You.
Visit me and help me,
for the sake of your great mercy.
Strike me and heal me;
cast me down and raise me up.
I worship in silence for Your holy will
and Your unsearchable ways.
I offer myself as a sacrifice to You.
I have no other desire than to fulfill Your will.
Teach me to pray.
Pray Yourself in me.
Metropolitan Philaret of Moscow, 1782-1867
The Encyclopedia of Prayer and Praise slightly modified
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I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
prayer & verse 
I’m reading this prayer through another lens now knowing something about the decisions others are facing. Sometimes the place God calls us is to a cross, or perhaps another way to say it is that in every decision the cross is being offered to us. After all, we are to pick it up daily. So, the question becomes, where in this choice or this decision am I being called to follow Christ, to surrender, to allow my desires to be crucified and purified through the cross?
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